As artists think alike…

Who’d have thought? Just like words comin’ from the lips of an angel, the most awful reality has come out from nowhere. It happened, but definitely it wasn’t our pro’s to blame. He had to fix his attention for a better cause rather than spend his time which he should have thought to happen just by near tomorrow, since he also knew Ellaine could have learned this. She was taken over by a third party. No! He wasn’t the third party. He was her first. Her first which could have been kept for our man. But it did not come true. Right now, I can’t think of someone whom I should blame. Anyway, it’s not my life. It’s his.

Damn, I knew it! He’d end up just the way I did. If I should only have the chance to tell him right away, about what he should have done, about what I learned from something I’ve been used to. It’s just that, I can’t do something about it. He’s just in my mind. He’s just a part, a glimpse of my longed ambition. It’s either I learn from him, or end up getting frustrated.

But I know this won’t end seriously awful. Though he was not her first, it doesn’t really mean he can’t be her last. It was not a waste for him. Since he thought, maybe this is how fate’s going to work. There’ll be a certain man who could teach Ellaine what lessons she’d have to consider before she’d proceed for a lot more serious love life, that fate have in reserved for them. 

Indeed, as what I’ve thought. She was the girl in his dreams, the love of his life. It’s not just certain if Ellaine do thought the same way. He just wishes for it, but as for now he lies with full satisfaction on what he feels for her. Anyway, he is still at the peak of his career and this is probably the reason why he still won’t head for a greater goal.

Whew! This was just like the same scene I had about 6 or 7 months past. My career as a student was also on its highest peak when I met this lady. I had her stuck on my eyes and it was love at first sight. So, I thought of speaking to her, told her my intentions and it did went nice. She accepted me as a friend, and later I frankly spoke to her that if she’d give me a chance to court her right before it’d be summer. She gladly said, yes, and I was really very happy and excited hoping that summertime would be coming soon. But you know how it ended? A week before the fourth month, she just gave off a sweet "yes" to a good-looking man who was on the same class as I am. I didn’t know there was already an other guy. I was a dope! If I only asked her first before this new guy came, I could have already spent my summer with the girl I loved. I thought, it was really an opportunity which slipped off my hands and a chance I’d regret all my life.

I hope our silly protagonist won’t end the same as I did. I couldn’t help reminiscing this awful past. But on the brighter side, I know Ellaine’s petty admirer won’t let this happen. I just know, ‘coz I believe he’s not as stupid as I am. He will definitely soon talk and show to her his sweetest emotions.

Yes! She was "Number 2", a stopper on a famous Pinoy card game. A conscience, a guardian, a motivator, and most appropriately, an inspiration. I never had the chance to be her boyfriend, but she was like the most special girl for me. I just don’t know, but even the slightest smile, if it comes from her, then I’d instantly calm down and do what she says. There was even once when a lifetime opportunity just came by. The company said that I’d be hired as a head of a System Analysis Team on a famous corporation in Canada, when Ellaine asked me, "when will you be coming back?" …There was no trace of excitement on her face, only an expression of longing. I did not mind anymore to tell her I’d be in the states for 5 years. I just know, she won’t forgive me if I’d be gone for 5 long years. And I also won’t make it if I knew she won’t be by my side for such a long time. So, without asking her back, I decided to stay.

I never ended regretting every decision I made, because for every action, she was always there. In fact, who I am right now is not because I made it on my own, it’s because, she served as my decisive thought. ‘Coz maybe, and hopefully, she’s what they call, "One’s Cupid’s other bull’s eye."

It’s funny that this dream’s got in a romantic fairy tale. It wasn’t suppose to be like this. He doesn’t care… He can’t hate, nor love, no single evidence of emotion to be found. A stone-hearted, neither cruel nor kind. How would ever Ellaine fall for such a guy. Even if he’d become the best provider, it’d be done with an inhuman manner. Good luck to him! If he’d meet the scene he expects the most, then it’s probably for a reason that fate played along.

He wasn’t really that ambitious. Neither that he exerts too much effort for work nor he had a lot of connections for incoming jobs. It’s just that, he lives by the saying, "go with the flow". In fact, even before, he didn’t even try to dream on what he will be in the future. He doesn’t believe in the future. As he said, he lives by the present, but learns from the past. What keeps him going is simply passion. He loves his job. As a programmer and a systems analyst, he would offer his service even without the prescribed salary, or maybe even without pay at all. Maybe this was the biggest reason why this guy reached the peak of a money maker. Uhhhmmm, maybe not term him as "money maker", perhaps businessman? Nope, he’s rather more suited for a "self-centered sloth".

Indeed, like mentioned, he’s not a hardworking man at all. Anyway, programmers are naturally lazy. But if you keep on butting a question why the heck he earns money that much is because, he just wanted to do what he likes to do. He’d give off something valuable in exchange for his wants. In fact, we may already consider him as selfish. ‘Cause in everything he does, it’s not for the reason he asked for somebody’s opinion, but he simply thinks whatever these decisions are, are for his goodness sake. He even had the tagline, "who cares?" And what’s more? This guy didn’t become as he is now without becoming a problem to a lot of people.

It is true, that he was a pain in the head even before. His decisions are a lot like childish. No considerations of suggestions even from the opinions of his family. Does this young man ever had the chance to change? I was already sitting on top of the toilet when I thought, "this sucks!" It’s like me, but I don’t want it to be me. I knew there is something that would make me change. And there really is, not something, but someone. Someone who was like a moderator, trying to stop him on everthing he’d do, everything…

I just had my day with the usual start. Again, spend just about an hour inside the bathroom doing almost nothing at all, except, dreaming. Anyway, if I was in your case, you’d also learn, that dreaming is such an easy and entertaining thing to do. Aside from experiencing a semi-virtual adventure, you’d also learn the greatest lessons in life. Just for a matter of hours, you can enjoy the coolest adventure you can ever imagine. But of course, you can choose not to do it inside the shower room… Maybe on your own room, or perhaps, the attic, but never on an open area, ‘cause if you do, people might think you’re much more comfortable locked up on a mental hospital.

This time, the plot that was on my mind was about the future that is expecting me to fulfill. I still can’t further explain the details though, but it shows a part of me, wherein I was on a closed room, discussing some important facts to a group of people whom I thought to be as owners of the biggest company in the Philippines. Boosted up with confidence and reputation, I could amazingly explain every detail about the company’s strengths and weaknesses related to computer systems. From the bitmost information about different data, up to the most complicated organization of the company’s d’base, everything was just like a piece of cake. If anybody from the group would raise his hand and ask for some clarifications, without any doubt, I could immediately answer him back an honest opinion.

Yeah, this is what I call, "Profession". I must be able to equip myself with overwhelming skills, not just any petty idealistic mind. Well, I just thought, if this is me, then how was I able to reach this far? So, I decided to drop a self-proposition: to add and spend another minute inside my friendly cage.